Wednesday, February 14, 2018

Overnight Move

Sometimes a healthy dose of surprise is okay. I seem to have perfected the art of moving at the will of God. It’s always a rough, uncomfortable, and hasty move. It could happen in 24, 48, or 36 hours. Yet, it’s a necessary move.

Moving back to my hometown is not easy. I miss a lot of people. I see things I knew were there before. I see new things that have developed. But most importantly I see the need for love and abundance.

This city is plagued with restaurants, and most people don’t cook at home. I see a need for a resurgence of home cooked meal. I see a need for family. I see a need for understanding.

I see lots of needs in the society. It makes me wonder what the difference is between this area of Texas and other areas. What is the defining characteristic that will transform our little place into an area of abundance, joy, and love.

It could all start with changing fear into respect. It could not, but I’m sure I will find out soon enough.

Wednesday, February 7, 2018

I don’t know if I’m ballsy or ridiculous

I tried to meditate the other morning. I know, it’s a far fetched concept. I hadn’t officially meditated since 2009. Anyhow, I’m meditating, having a cool time. My eyes are closed and I’m just chilling with my meditation friends in my mind and then there was like this dark cloud coming into the picture. At first my friends were like, hey you wanna jet. This looks bad.

A small panic made me jump. But I shook my head. I was going to face that dark cloud. It was about time to face my nightmares. I don’t think I knew what I was getting into.

From the dark cloud a man appears. He’s tall, dark, kind of handsome. He seemed genuinely respectful except for one thing. He had a look in his eyes. The kind that I recognized as wickedness.

How long do you think you could run. The man spoke.

I laughed and launched an arrow made of God at the tip of his feet. He was entrapped in blue fire. I will run as long as I have to.

There is no use in running. Everyone has a crack in their heart, and I will latch onto that. He said as he tried to push the fire away with his finger.

I laughed. He then tried to rise up to escape the fire. But the fire followed him up. You don’t think I know that?

You don’t have the power to destroy me. He said amused.

You don’t think I know that? But you are just jealous of God. Your whole point in life is to deter us from him with your lies and false promises. My role in this world is not to destroy you. But to be free from you. In the same way you will latch onto the cracks of a heart. I will do my best to find the weakness in your chains and free people from you. Only my Lord can destroy you.

He laughed and pushed his entire body through the flames leaving behind his well appearance and showing his true body and nature. Something so horrific that I wish no one else would ever see.

I finished my meditation feeling scared and proud.

“Who in the world would ever act that way toward the Devil?” Was the first thought that came into my mind. I laughed shrugging it off. Thanking God for the wonderful day he had given me again.

Friday, February 2, 2018

Feeling Blue

I fear obstacles. Sometimes it’s a small set back like feeling extra blue for days. Sometimes it had been a broken bone. Other times it’s just swollen joints that hurt a lot. Sometimes it’s just a time crunch issue where I have too much no my plate and not enough time to sit down.

Whatever the obstacle it upsets me. I hate feeling powerless over a situation. A lot of people would say that I could be a control freak or unbending. But I’m just scared. Fear is a devious and awful feeling.

But it doesn’t have to be that way. Somehow I’m not going to solve all my problems by hiding under the covers. Nor am I going to solve all my problems by working harder, smarter, longer. Sometimes all it takes is to

There are those that really love the shortened, bumper sticker phrase, “be still and know I am God.” But, I like the full version as seen in the RSV. “Be still, and know that I am God. I am exalted among the nations, I am exalted in the earth!” I know that saying God implies that God is exalted among the nations and earth. But hearing it more from God is very special to me.

In the midst of obstacles, being reminded of other things is always a great thing for me. For the time being, I just have to practice being.