Tuesday, January 23, 2018

When life throws you lemons

It’s okay not to catch them all.(Okay, that was a good start. I’m done now…I wish.)

It’s okay if you don’t have the right answer. It’s okay to want things you can enjoy. It’s okay to sit down if you’re tired. It’s okay to eat if you’re hungry. It’s okay to hurt.

Too many times we want to make lemonade out of lemons. When maybe the lemons weren’t the subject of the experiment. It was us, and our newfound knowledge to not catch the lemon and let it fall on the floor.

Often times I struggle with the fear that I will never be able to meet all the expectations others have of me. Sometimes I struggle a lot with insecurity, feeling that people only root for me because they expect me to be a certain type of character. This insecurity sits on the left side of my heart, barely piercing my lungs. It’s a fear of not being accepted because I couldn’t be what an individual or society wants me to be.

No one can be perfect and catch everything. I mean you can die trying. But it won’t ever be worth it. Learning to acknowledge that fact is paramount for me to move forward.

Though right now it feels like there are so many obstacles and they are coming right after another. Well, it doesn’t mean that I have to fight every single one every single time. I don’t know what it means otherwise, but that’s okay.

It’s going to be okay.