Friday, March 11, 2016

All the advice was right

Do you remember everything you learned in high school? Yeah I don’t either (not even 75% of my classmates). But I remember some things about job hunting that really have stood the test of time.

Things like:
  • Always read a document before you fill it out
  • Dress to impress, you dirty son of a bitch
  • Have references
  • Carry your resume
  • Keep your phone on silent
  • N/A, use N/A
  • Do not lie on your resume

But what high school didn’t teach me and y’all shall really know is:
  • Don’t put your SSN on an application so readily.
  • Okay, you really need the exact dates you worked at places. Web applications need to be precise that way.
  • Your work experience is nothing if you don’t list skills
  • Your references need to be personal or professional references. People like personal ones better some times, but know the difference between boss friend and hang out friend.
  • Future employers would love to know how much you’ve made at your previous job to see if they can get away with paying you shit wages. So don’t humor them and put your past wages.

The importance of a job application is to get an interview and discuss all these wonderful things about you. The job market is so saturated right now that it’s important to be yourself and portray yourself to the fullest of your ability to land that job. How hard can it be, right?

Tuesday, March 8, 2016

Drawing Lines

Ever have something you want really badly that you can't help but do anything and everything in your power for it? And even then, no matter what you do some things end up being more harmful than good for you. But you can’t help doing these things. You just can’t.

That’s how it feels sometimes in regards to my body dysmorphia. It’s like, no matter how I feel about my body and no matter how I dress myself, certain things just feel really uncomfortable. And it’s not like I sit around and question every little thing I do.

But subconsciously I know it’s uncomfortable and subconsciously I do things to make myself feel better. In reality, I’m just creating bruises and future problems. But what do I do? The right answer is to not do these things but not doing so creates a panic.

Not being who I know I am physically is taxing. It’s a silent aching thorn creating the most subtle scar over me. It’s the reason why I can’t draw a line between doing things that are harmful and doing things that are not. Because thorns have no rhyme or reason.